Rhythm of my Heart, ... stays still in front of your Mountain.

 A page from my secret notebook...

I walk slowly in the morning sunshine. I am in front of your mountain. I see the peak, where you climb to, I see the secret forest where we were together .. 12 months ago. Time is gone. The memory.. burns in me. I see you, in my mind's eye, over there, at the top of your mountain... And I have written this:

Rhythm of my heart.

~ Rhythm of my Heart,
stays still in front of your Mountain
because I see you in my mind's eye-
on the top there, spreading your arms wide in the glorious golden sunset,
as if you are about to fly! You spread your arms, look up at the burning sunset sky, and breathe deep. I watch you, thousand meters below - on the cool meadow. You lift your head up to the burning sky, spread your arms -
and then you fly.
You are above me, on the sky . . . you hover over me, make a circle - and land - fifty meters away... you collect your wings and stroll away in that special gait you have...
I see that in my mind. It was.. a fourth of July, I think, a Thursday.
A beautiful day.
More than one year later, now, I see that still in my mind. - that day, you on top of your mountain -
In my mind you are near, here with me, next to me, holding me.
In reality you are far, thousand miles away.

Do you have an image of me, I wonder... what that would be.

I see you here, on top of your mountain, right above our secret forest where we make love under the tall pine trees. I remember how we lay down on the summer grass in each other's arms... where we were together like never before when we felt eachother's heartbeat -  - - for another last time long ago, before that other goodbye when you were moving to a place far far away.. across the sea. - just before that other goodbye, we hold us tender.
I see us in our secret forest,
and you said that time 'now I must go, but you will be with me, in me.'
I could not speak, on that Thursday, twelve months ago, when you said it is time to go!
I see you there on top of your mountain. Now here, in my mind
"It is time to go." I tell you now. Time to go from that top, from my mind, from the top of my mind.

But you do not go.

You are still there...
- - on top of your mountain, you stand, on top of the world, you do not go away.
you stay
on top of all my thoughts and my heart.
you own them.
you dominate them.
you stay.
You Do Not Go Away!
no.
you are . . . 
you still are 
on top of my whole universe of thoughts...
and I feel you with me,
just as closely and intensely now inside me,
as you did, when you came in to me that time.
Time stands still in me....
You stay inside me. On Top of all my worlds together,
you are there. And you stay.


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Hold your breath, .. hold your breath still.... (listen here, it is about us) 
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I Hold my breath...

Afternoon on This Tuesday.

I write this and I see.... your message.
I hold my breath. 
I feel you.
I have no answers because there are no questions: You are here.
That is infinite.  

You make all my butterflies flutter and fly!
You do. Only you. 
x.

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