Love(?) Letters for My Imaginary Darling

History.  First, or the Ninth Letter .  Do you remember when this was written? -- turn the pages of our sweet history. It Starts .. Started. Like This.  " ​ Ich verspreche dir - die ist die letzte Email. Vielleicht schreibe ich heute öfter, weil ich bald wegfahre. Du weißt schon, wenn ich schreibe, ich denke nichts.. So hope you can take it as it comes... :)  Without judging, or thinking too much :) if you can.    Would like to hear you - -or not. LOL  In a way, why do we need to know everything. Just go on as it goes on.,, "das Leben ist weder einfach noch kompliziert. Das Leben  ist ." Sagte der kleine Prinz.  I was so hesitant to even open my mailbox today - didn't know what you'd have written. Do not know what this is, either.  I'm scared of steep heights, and afraid to go in deep water. Despite all that - I was diving in deep end since Monday and by Thursday -  you take me deeper but give me Vertigo at same time, but I'm still ...

  I miss you. That is all. I just miss you So Much! 🌼 "We hide behind our walls. Scared to love in plain sight, because we're right for thinking that love is dangerous. But when it comes to us -  the rise before the fall... It's all I'm thinking of.  We can lose it all, but ... baby I -  - I want us to try.  Breathe and close your eyes!  It's gonna be alright." * *  Well that is from a song, too. Another b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l song by Rui.  "Let's shed our skin and grow. It's gonna be alright. When it comes to us - baby all I'm thinking of is the rise before the fall. We can't let it go. Let's choose to be alive and close our eyes!  We can lose it all, baby but I ... I want us to try, 'coz we might find our way to Paradise." Paradise . . .  Or we live on Earth, as full human beings! Right here, right now. Let us Live Right Here, Right Now!  Right here, on Earth. As fully fulfilled human beings.  When  we can  Live  w...

I do not want to escape -  I do not want to escape this excruciating beautiful painful feeling  . . . in my heart for you. this sublime ache you bring to me  your absence brings to me . . . till you come.  i live because you save me. because you will come to save me. At Start. I wrote: I do not feel anything except sad. I miss you so much that it had swallowed ............. (1*) I write these words - - - and in this exact second, I hear the message coming from you. In this exact moment.... you write to me "Please do not reply... I just wanted to tell you, that I am with you. . . . I kiss you all night through . . . " My tears under the starlit sky, just a few minutes ago. Sad tears. I looked on the Milky Way and felt and believed "it will be alright. I do not know how it will be alright, but I believe that everything will be good." And I thought to myself "I do not cry because of you, I cry for you. "  I believed. And you came. ==  (*1) I would have finish...