Love(?) Letters for My Imaginary Darling

PART II  Last time I hesistated to tell you something. This time I tell you, and let you feel all that with my fingertips.  I do not want to resist that powerful something anymore. I want it to be alive in me. 21.05.2020 (Finish I) == == ==  Do you know what I suddenly realized? That we are blessed? We are blessed sometimes with too many things than we need. Too much blessings make us confused, and that makes us feel un-blessed... but in reality - in truth - we are blessed! - more than once. We have more than what we need. So we have to be thankful? - double so thankful? May be yes. Because we are blessed - a lot. So please do not press the "pause" button - just live! Live the way 'you' want to live and be alive. The life is wonderful and there is only one, for each of us. Just one.  ========================== EXCERPT == == ==================== 21.05.2020 (Start II)  This is what you said: "Es wird für irgendetwas gut sein. - aber wir bleiben tapfer." "...

Sweetheart darlingschatz, There is one thing which you have said to me today, which I have understood only later. When you said it, I understood part of it. The rest, I understood only later, because of my German language. What you said - was something important: it was about life. You said "the life is long enough. So it is okay to waste it."  No. It is not. It is never , NEVER ok to waste life. The moment you realize that you are wasting your life, is the moment to stop it. Ask me about it. Because I know! I know, because I am an expert at wasting my life. Just like this. This may be something you do not expect to hear, my darling. But I must say it. Last time when you lauched a similar (or related) topic, I did not respond quickly or properly, because it was a huge theme. I did not dare to talk about it soon enough. I was waiting. - I was waiting to find out what I 'will be' thinking in the next moment: - so I did not tell you what I 'am' thinking in that m...

Saying something, and not saying the other things. Sending Only This Part. DIFFICULT QUESTION: Next item. That difficult question which I asked on call last week. Now, this is almost the last time I tell you about this........ No. I am erasing this. I am not sending this to you............ some secrets. should wait. until the moment comes or goes away forever.   ====== ORG 17-18.05.2020 ==== Not Sending Ths Part To You. (why? do I protect you?) - may be yes. DIFFICULT QUESTION: Next item. That difficult question which I asked on call last week. Now, this is almost the last time I tell you about this. I want to explain why it was important for me to know, exactly what you meant by that sentence. Somethings are easy to say, some not so easy. I think that we do it well.. So let me try to explain, one last time: I have remembered each word on the car that day. The beautiful words, the most beautiful words, and the difficult ones too. Afterwards, when I thought about that sentence, I di...

Parts of me are visible. Some parts are not visible. Which version of me do you see?  My Darling Imaginary, This is what I wrote to you, in the imaginary letter which you could see. What Happened in the Car, Does Not Stay in the Car. (Visible . Version 1. ) After "the day in the car"- as I refer to that meeting. Do you know why I so much wanted to meet you after the "car" day? There was one sentence which I did not understand in the car. I needed to understand that one sentence. Because it was defining the future between you and me. I wanted to know what you meant.  It sounded something like this: "ich kann jetzt nicht mehr sagen, uns gibt nicht mehr" or "ich kann nicht mehr sagen, dass es uns nicht mehr gibt." Then, "Ich kann dir nicht mehr sagen, nicht zu schreiben oder uns nicht mehr gibt. Du musst es selber . . . " (did not finish sentence.) That was my mission, when I wrote all those messages and persisted the contact: Only because...