Leaving New York not easy ...


Letting go...


I have to leave the one single person to whom I have given All of Me.
The One person who has taken all of me like no one else could do before.
I have to leave him
because it has to be!


Does it makes sense? 
Not to me. 
But... yes, it does make sense in a way - in a different way.

It does not make sense when we think about Love ... and the heart and soul that would be content. 
It does not make sense at all, when we think of "what do we want, how do we want to live this life to the Full, what do I want, wish and really, really, really want for me!?"

It does not make sense at all, when we think like that above.

Making Sense... ? Losing sense...

Are we losing the sense of direction of this life?
What is the right thing to do? - To live for ourselves, or to live for others?
!!
It does not make sense at all, when we think "what do we want for us, for myself..."

But, 
it makes sense in this one single way: when we think "What is my duty, how can I be there for someone selflessly so that they will have a better life?!"
Duty! We are bound to.
Things and Persons! - we are responsible for!

That is what keeps us bound to the OTHER one

THAT is what takes us away FROM each other!

THAT is what makes us lose our heads, lose our minds .. and lose us. We lose ourselves. 

We are losing "us" - because we cannot lose the "others" - We need them because they need us!

We need "us" together too.
It is not compatible? It is. But you do not think so, in your case.
In my case, it is not compatible, but I could lose this "other" side- with LOTS of pain and hurt .. I could. 
I do not know, - if you have put this choice in front of me - whether I could have dared to do it or not...
I think I would dare! ... to do anything for you! 
For your sake, I will turn my world upside down and inside out....
So I do that for your NOW: by letting you go!
By choosing to Lose You, 
because you had to choose to Lose Me. 

I have to lost the one single person in my life, to whom I lost all of myself! I have to lose one person who took all of me, who has stolen all my heart and all my secrets and made them all his!

It belongs to you, Darling

All of Me.

We Choose To Lose "us"...


You will choose to be there for someone else now - your duty for being there for the people who need you, whom you value most in your life.
I will have to choose to be there for someone else, too. Someone who needs me and who values me more than anything else in his life. 

I will be there for him.

Me, my heart, soul and all of me
will be there for you, Only You.
Always, I am yours.

Will you be there for me, a little bit
now and then ... when those memories of our sweet moments go fleetingly across your mind's eye...
will you think of me?
Will you try to remember me,
or will you try to forget me...


Is this really the End?
Shall we ever End "us" ---- can we!


All of Me will be All for you.
I belong to you.

Does it end ...


Who do you belong to? .. Do you have yourself in whole, when you do not have me....

I wish you that you will be whole and complete!

Darling, I wish you well!



Leaving New York .. not easy ...
by R.E.M. Listen >> 

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Do I believe in Miracles....
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I do! I almost do...




 














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