"I promise you..." - the first or the ninth - letter to my imaginary darling.


History. 

First, or the Ninth Letter . 

Do you remember when this was written? -- turn the pages of our sweet history.

It Starts .. Started. Like This. 

"​Ich verspreche dir - die ist die letzte Email. Vielleicht schreibe ich heute öfter, weil ich bald wegfahre.

Du weißt schon, wenn ich schreibe, ich denke nichts.. So hope you can take it as it comes... :) 
Without judging, or thinking too much :) if you can. 
🎈 
Would like to hear you - -or not. LOL 
In a way, why do we need to know everything. Just go on as it goes on.,, "das Leben ist weder einfach noch kompliziert. Das Leben ist." Sagte der kleine Prinz. 
I was so hesitant to even open my mailbox today - didn't know what you'd have written.

Do not know what this is, either. 
I'm scared of steep heights, and afraid to go in deep water. Despite all that - I was diving in deep end since Monday and by Thursday - 
you take me deeper but give me Vertigo at same time, but I'm still here.  
Why. 
Should I run away?
I should try.. Because there is no name for this. I would like to fly away. 

You were supposed to save me! - Or at least tell me its name. Is this a game, then what do I win. 

Wish I could read your mind, words or face, just to know Why. 

Take care. "

🌹 


imilwy.


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